Friday, October 17, 2014

You've said ..


I got the text from you this morning at 4.14 am .
I didn't read it .
Cause I woke up late today and had to get ready for school .
At school , I read it . 
Luckily I could hold back my tears at school 
and a good actor . 

I kept thinking and kept waiting for your text . 
I never stop hoping for that one text of yours and you say that 
you couldn't leave me cause you love me too much . 
I kept hoping for everything to be a dream . 
But it wasn't . 

I arrived home and crash .
The tears kept falling .
I kept remembering the moments we had . 
the dates we've gone on . 
the anniversary that we've celebrate together .
the texts and calls that we always did . 
I just can't \believe that we'll lose all of this . 

The bracelet that you've gave me 
I'm still wearing it . 
and it brings back memories that I can't bear to remember 
cause I'll cry even worst than I am crying right now . 

I still remember the day that we first met . 
It was unexpected . 
We became friends 
then you confessed to me that you wanted to be more than that .
You were the sweetest guy purposing to have a relationship with me .
You were texting me all in english and I was impress . 
It was 14 Dec 2012 almost midnight when you purpose to me . 
And without doubting I said yes . 
We've been together ever since . 
There were some ups and downs 
But we'll get through it always . 

You were there for me and I was there for you . 
Always having each other's backs . 
Our arguments are cute and funny if I replay it in my mind . 
It scares me to death not having that moments again . 

We've been together for 1 year 10 months and 3 days . 
You said that we would be together forever . 
You said you were going to marry me .
You said we would grow old together . 
Have kids and a house of our own . 
You said that you wouldn't leave but you did anyway . 

I'm not giving up . 
I don't care if you like it or not but I'll be texting and calling you everytime . 
Until you respond . 
I'm not going to let you go that easy Miezan . 
Cause you will always be mine . 
And only mine . 
Call me crazy or anything I don't care 
All i care is the one that I love the most . 
Mohd. Hamizan Bin Hassan . 
 I'll wait , no matter how it hurts . 

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Lost and Insecure


Have you ever felt like this ?
Broken 
Insecure 
Lost 
Depressed 
Unwanted 
Not good enough 
Not worth it 
Played 
Lied to 
and much more 

Falling in love is easy . 
But the consequences you'll pay until you can't bear any more .

Yeah , I know at first they'll say everything to have your heart .
They'll cared 
They'll love 
They'll promise 
They'll make you believe 
They'll make you feel like you meant the whole world to them 
And so much more . Much more , believe me , I've heard it all . 

That would only last for about 4 months or more or less .
They'll stop doing all of those things 
And you asked them , why ? 
They'll just made up every reason that they could find 
so that you will forgive them . 
And us girl eventually will forgive . 
Oh believe me , we will . I could tell you that . 
Cause we loved them , we truly do , don't we ? 
I'm right , right ? 

That was at first . 
When time goes by .
Problems will come one by one and finally you can't forgive any more .
You end up remembering 
Crying 
Cussing 
And such 
You said you will never give a fuck about it any more , 
but in the end , you eventually give a fuck all over again .

They'll crush you until you feel like you wanna stop 
but you can't 
You want to let go but you can't 

Let me tell you peoples , 
this is the situation that I'm facing right now . 
1 year and 10 months . 
Today was our monthsary , 10th monthsary but 
it became a monthsary that I wish I never had . 

So I say goodnight to all of you 
Have a great day tomorrow and 
keep your head held high . 


Thursday, October 2, 2014

The life of me ❤


It's been a while since I wrote on this blog of mine . 
Well as you know , I'm a ex Pelatih from PLKN . 
Kumpulan 2 Siri 11 , 
At Kampung Sungai Tiga , Mesapol , Siptang . 
And now I'm continuing my studies in Form 6 at SMK Tamparuli . 
And the worst part is I'm at History class .
Isn't that greatt ?! ��

PLKN did good to my body lately . 
Although we ate 6 meals a day over there but I'm amaze but the slim body I have . 
It's like magic . 
Anyway glad to have that sexy body over here . 

Form 6's life is like heaven and hell mix together , you know what I mean . 
Saw old friends , meet new friends , learn new things and more . 
Oh yeah , I learn new things at PLKN too . I didn't think I would survive in there . 
But it's actually quite fun . 
I finally have new friends around the world . 
Well maybe not the world but , you get my point right ? 
My advise for people who got pick for PLKN , 
Got for it . I would die for another chance over there . 
I didn't finish 3 months over there cause of the Form 6 thingy . 

I'm still in love with my man Miezan if you guys ask . 
And cherishing it all the time to have that one special guy waiting for you 
" when I was at PLKN " 

So I think that's all for today . 
Can't really pay many attention on social network these days . 
Who loves you , let them love . 
Who hates you , let them hate . 
Don't be so naive . 
It's not them who will take care of you later . 
So let the music flow by and keep moving forward babyyyy ✌

Gotta go now . 
Buyebyeee . 
See you next time . 


Monday, June 9, 2014

Grandma , I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you :')

Hey everyone :) 
How's everyone doing ? 
Hope everything is okay :)

Sorry cause I didn't update my blog for a long time . 
I just got back from PLKN on 29th May . 
But the thing is , I didn't have time to write . 
So today , is my day to get on writing :) 

Well , here goes .. 
While I saw at PLKN , something happened . 
Something happened to my beloved grandma :( 
No wonder my heart couldn't calm down . 
If my mom didn't call me , I would even know what had happened while I saw away . 


This is what happened to my grandma :( 
The incidents goes like this .. 

My grandma was at a party . 
She was ready to go home . 
It was dark and she didn't see that there was stairs at the end of the path .
So she went straight and fell . 
Her ankle bone twisted . 
She was quickly sent to the KB's Hospital . 
And was sent to Queen Elizabeth's Hospital . 
The doctor said that grandma needs to have a surgery on her ankle . 
Cause the bone is twisted 180 degrees . 
 The doctor told us that the surgery was fine and complete . 
They screwed grandma's ankle bone together . 
Imagine how that hurts -,- 


Gosh ! that hurts >.<
Sorry that I have to go through that all grandma :'( 

Grandma's out from the hospital and now she's home :)


Currently Grandma's friend :) 

Taking care of grandma is my job for now . 
But I'll have to get back to school's life not long from now . 

Hope grandma will soon walk again . 
Get well soon Grandma ! 
I miss the dished that you would cook everyday :') 
Love you grandma ! 
<3 <3