Thursday, January 29, 2015

Happy again.

I know it not easy to let go , not easy to heal a broken heart that has broken into bits and pieces 
and some pieces are missing . 
You may think that you need someone to save you 
but you never think that maybe you have to save yourself.
Be your own superhero.
Be your own knight in shining amour.
Be the one who heals that heart that has been broken maybe 200 times or more,
Be stronger like no other.
Set yourself free from everything that has been holding you back , hurting you much more.

He played you , cheated on you , and even lie to you and much more.
You know what ?
He's the most stupid person in the world to let such a wonderful girl/woman like you.
Keep that in mind.
You are never too much abut you are enough.
He just couldn't handle someone hot like you.
He doesn't deserve someone like you.
You deserve so much more.
Remember you are wonderful.
Don't ever think that you couldn't compare to other girls out there.
You are more better than them.
You have your own uniqueness in you. 

There are so many other people out there.
Who loves you , cares for you and needs your love and support.
Everyone is there for you.
Just remember that.
It's always time to be happy again. 

Friday, January 23, 2015

Let me share something.

Hello everybody out there .
I got some spare time so I think I'm gonna share something .
Well as you can see the picture up there .
It's what I'm going to talk about .
Let's start shall we then ? 

Family is a every common word found everywhere around the world.
Some people don't have complete families. 
Know what I mean ?
For examples , people who don't have parents or other close relatives .
Maybe they lost them in a tragedy or any other reasons thou . 
But please remember peoples , 
there is always someone out there , who will treat you like family.
Family doesn't always need to share the same blood. 
Friends could be your family .
Anyone could be your family .

So peoples out there , don't lose hope okay ? 
Just keep moving forward .
Keep thinking positive and don't even think of doing any stupid stuff over there .
Cause God made us , to live a life of our own .
Cherish it cause some people don't even have a chance.

Saturday, January 17, 2015

Here I'm saying hello again to my blog

Helloo there peoples ,
It's been a long time since I updated my blog.
Dusty blog I'm having here .

So it's the new year I supposed .
2015 .
I'm dusting the weight on my shoulder for so long .
Yess , I'm letting go of something that I never thought I would in a million years.
I'm strong enough to go through this .
Plus I realise many other things through out this year and also 2014 

I gain friends , new ones and I'm glad the old ones never left .
I'm working out again to get a better me and that sexy body I've been wanting .
I realise some hidden enemies too .
But I'll dust them off some way .
I'm slowly getting out of my shell I guess . 
But there's no getting out of anything without grandma's approval .

I'm scare of checking my first semester result cause I know I didn't do very well back then .
I'm getting to like the feel of studying I guess 
and I kinda sort of liking history class now.
I guess that's a big change for me .

Boyfriends come and go right ? 
It's hard for me to let this one thing go but I have to .
Paksa ja la , apa boleh buat kan ? 
It's not the end of life .
Someone once told me , don't want someone who doesn't even want you.
Soo , goodbye sweet boy . 
Let this be a memory that we once know 
and also a lesson to learn . 
We can't forget the memories so let it stay where it belong cause one day we'll laugh over it .
It was fun , and in the first time I felt loved . 
Thankyouu for everything . 
Hope you find someone better than me . 
That will suit your kind of personality.

I gain so many guy friends . 
and now I know what they mean about having guy friends are better than having girl friends .
It's fun tu hangout with them . 
Talking to them on the phone . 
Whatsapp and wechating . 
Fun and funny .
They have a sense of humour and I can easily discuss something with them . 
To my guy friends : stay just the way you all are , xoxo.

I'm getting ready for my second semester exam and kerja kursus.
Wish me luck .
I'll write again if I have the time . 
You all stay pretty and humble k ? 
xoxo ;)

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Everything I though you never were .

I remember all the things I wrote here .
All the things that made me happy .
That made me think that maybe I've found my one and only
I thought about forever .
I believed again .
I trusted again .
I loved again .
I cared again .
I protect again .
And most of all , I put together my broken heart pieces together again little by little .
I thought of our future .
Kids , Homes , Family .
How only 1 hour even 1 minute not texting or call you would torture me .
How much that I've missed you .
How long I've waited for you here to come and hug me .
How broken was my heart when you didn't come .
I get upset about the silliest things , the smallest thing .
You said that I'm over thinking when you didn't pick up my calls or reply my texts .
What am I suppose to do ? Sit here and wait ?
You having secret relationships with other girls have been on my mind for like a thousand times but you keep assuring me that you don't .
It's like you wouldn't do me wrong .
The most important thing is that you told me you weren't like the others .
But maybe I saw something wrong back then from what I see now .

You cheated on me .
You fucking cheated on me when you assure me that you wouldn't .
You said you wouldn't play with someone's heart cause you're scared that Karma will arrived at you're son's or daughter's life .
Kau bilang dosa besar ba tu .
Pathetic .
Saying one thing and meaning another .
I know everything but I kept calm and ask you .
But your answers just didn't put up .
You lied again and again .

You two get out a lot .
I know I'm not the easy-to-get-out type like her but I've been waiting for that one day where we could meet up , a time when it's not me who plans it .
Besides meeting each other , what did you two do ?
Thinking of possible things you are capable of makes me sick .
I just wanna shout at you to get out , don't touch me ever again .
I cried and cried . I'm stupid right ?
I told you that I became a stupid like girl drunk my love .
I trust you , believe in you every bit .
I cared , I let you get away on anything .
Most importantly , I loved you .
Sometimes I wish that I have amnesia .
So that I could forget all of those stupid moments where you made me feel like a luckiest girl in the world , the only one in your heart , you little wifey , you most spoiled girlfriend .

Why couldn't you just tell me straight in the face that you don't want me anymore .
That you have another special someone .
That you weren't happy being with me .
That you've had enough of me .
That you just can't accept me for what I am now .
That I'm not enough for you .
That I'm not up to your standards .
Why would you do this to me ?
Why would you want to be with me if you don't think I'm worth it ?

The pain is still here .
The hurt is still here .
The hole in my heart is still here .
The cut still feels fresh .
The moments still stuck like glue .

Glad that your so call GIRLFRIEND called me and told me everything .
If not , I don't know until when you're going to play me like a fool .
You disgust me .
In my back , you've been with another girl and here I am thinking that things wouldn't go wrong between us but I guess I was wrong .
This fairytale wasn't made for me I guess .
I wonder how many lies have you told me since the day we've been together .
I also wonder how many girls have you've been together with .
It always brings me to tears again and again .
You know that you really out did yourself this time .

I've dream of you last night .
For the first time , I actually talked in my sleep .
I woke up in the morning , heart broken all over again .
For all the girls around this world , why would you do this to me ?
You said you were trying to test me .
What kind of a fucking test is that dude ?
You guys went out , meet each other for almost a month .
Without me knowing any bit of it .
You said you two are nothing right now .
So if I didn't caught you , you would go on with her in you two's little relationship ?
You gave me no reason to forgive you this time .
But I have to give you all the credit for hurting me like I've never been hurt before .
To gave me back that vulnerable girl inside of me again .
The girl that you were trying to save .
My insecurity came back .
You made me lost my ability to believe anymore .
I never know you , just one guy like you could hurt me like this .
I've been sick all this time because of you .
Lucky me cause I didn't die .

You were ask fake as the other boys I've met .
But you had my heart in your hands .
Don't you remember ?
I told you to take care of my heart cause I'm leaving it in your hands .
You promise me you would take care of it ,
But you crush it into bits .
Like a piece of paper .
Like glass you let it fall and shattered .
I think you did a most great job .
There's no need to make excuses .
You could just tell me in my face .

Mohd.Hamizan Bin Hassan .
You've had a heart of ice .